Moth to a Flame

The last few days have been a struggle with allergies and the return of some lovely bronchial congestion.  This in and of itself is not really a good thing but I remain undaunted, which is.  Thursday night I ended up on the couch, miserable with a 200 lb. something perched precariously on my chest.  So that, topped with poor sleep left me feeling a little less than stellar yesterday morning.  I made a last minute appt. for acupuncture and I have to say, what a thing of beauty those little needles are.  I left feeling like the aforementioned 200 lb. beast had been removed to points unknown.

In addition to the physical care (which I don't believe is just physical more on that later) but this was a big deal to take the time and space to actually take care of myself.

Day 4

Well, I took the day before yesterday day off, just no energy.  Yesterday back at it, husband and I took a brisk 3 mile walk then did the almost 40 minute pure cardio workout.  I had no idea my lungs could work so hard and I could breathe so fast.  It was good though.  I wasn't too excited about doing it before we started, but felt great afterward.  The push-up sections are still really tough,  arggh.

Bug on a windshield

Bug on a windshield, that's how I feel after day two, cardio workout with lots football, basketball and skiing moves.  The monkey arms need some help.

Day 2 - 5 mile walk, body sore

Oh boy am I sore today, unbelievable.  Every muscle from my neck down says "screw you".  As long as I keep moving, it's not too bad, but as soon as I park it, everything wants to freeze in that position.

This is what I feel like.  We walked for about 5 miles at a good clip, that felt good.  Now I have to make sure that I eat enough of the right food.

Day 1 - Fit Test

This is me, Day 1!  I am doing the 60 day Insanity fitness program.  The Fit Text was humbling, seven exercises timed and number of reps recorded.  YEAH.  Why my heart didn't explode, I have no idea.  I think Shawn T. should be handing out elevation credits.  We breathe 20% oxygen at 5800 ft. of elevation.  

After the embarrassment, I was really jazzed and cleaned the house like never before.  Gotta find the good where you can get it.  Maybe in 60 days I'll have more than one sad little push up in me.

Wish me luck and encouraging comments are solicited.

Insanity

We'll see who's laughing in a few days when I start the Insanity program.  Since running is a crap shoot at this point, I've decided I don't want to be that person who sits around wishing for something else.  Life is just too short and I am pulled in by the idea that I can make a difference in myself. It's not so much about looking good (although I'd be lying if I said it didn't matter) but more about knowing who I am and what I can do. 

The trick will be to actually apportion the time every day, regardless of travel.  Despite a fair amount of scheduling and planning, I was going to miss my drumming circle this month which was a big let down.  I very much look forward to this time on the new moon each month and just the act of finding a way, which didn't inconvenience anyone else, made a difference in how I feel about myself.

No one is a bigger fan of PBS and public radio than I am.  Raised on Mr. Rogers and Sesame Street and with thousands of hours logged in listening to NPR, I always take a moment when the pledge drives are raging, a few bucks is well worth the investment.  This week Dwayne Dyer was on KPBS in San Diego.  Generally I give a grain of salt to the motivational self help guys out there, but he rarely says something I can't take to heart.  You have five minutes at the end of the day before falling asleep in which to solidify your intentions.  This works.

Horrid dreams are common for me.  I tend to suffer the rigors of being chased regularly and there are many nights that I die or murder people.  After doing a shamanic journeying session two months ago and later reading a book about journeying, I found that my dreams were more peaceful and positive.

Bla Bla Bla, bottom line, you get to decide.