Insanity

We'll see who's laughing in a few days when I start the Insanity program.  Since running is a crap shoot at this point, I've decided I don't want to be that person who sits around wishing for something else.  Life is just too short and I am pulled in by the idea that I can make a difference in myself. It's not so much about looking good (although I'd be lying if I said it didn't matter) but more about knowing who I am and what I can do. 

The trick will be to actually apportion the time every day, regardless of travel.  Despite a fair amount of scheduling and planning, I was going to miss my drumming circle this month which was a big let down.  I very much look forward to this time on the new moon each month and just the act of finding a way, which didn't inconvenience anyone else, made a difference in how I feel about myself.

No one is a bigger fan of PBS and public radio than I am.  Raised on Mr. Rogers and Sesame Street and with thousands of hours logged in listening to NPR, I always take a moment when the pledge drives are raging, a few bucks is well worth the investment.  This week Dwayne Dyer was on KPBS in San Diego.  Generally I give a grain of salt to the motivational self help guys out there, but he rarely says something I can't take to heart.  You have five minutes at the end of the day before falling asleep in which to solidify your intentions.  This works.

Horrid dreams are common for me.  I tend to suffer the rigors of being chased regularly and there are many nights that I die or murder people.  After doing a shamanic journeying session two months ago and later reading a book about journeying, I found that my dreams were more peaceful and positive.

Bla Bla Bla, bottom line, you get to decide.